sixty days sober

yup. i’ve been that busy that i haven’t posted for 8 days thats pretty bad. BUT i havent drank at all and the only drugs i’ve done is smoking weed and i only have cigarettes when i get high. i’m going to try to retrace back my days so i can have this to remember later

day five; i really cant remember what happened this day i do remember that i got baked, maybe with victoria? i think so. we had some interesting discussions about our christmas breaks, its always fun finding things out hah

day six; having a day off in the middle of the week is really nice, i went to the gym and swam laps which turned out really well, i did 40 laps in this series where i would start with a front crawl and i would do the next three however i wanted and every 5th lap had to be front crawl so 1,5,10,20. at the end of every 9 and 19th lap i wouldnt touch the wall i just went to the end and treaded for 2 -230 mins.

day seven; 8 am classes after a day off shouldn’t be allowed, by the time i got home it was just time to get really baked and chill, so at 11 am i was pretty ripped and then ended up being able to take a little nap before my 2 pm class. me and my friend katrina, who’s a vegetarian, made supper together which was friendly to her meal preference haha stuff eggplant, they were alright, not something i’ve ever really going to crave but i’d eat it again if i had to. although it was expensive to buy the stuff for so i probably wont be again. chilled and got baked with my roommates and went to bed nice and early so i could be up for 8 am class again

day eight; nice early 8 am class, too dead to go to the gym after that so i just hung out at home and then went to the school to do some homework.

day nine; being up at 5 am is not healthy when you dont go to bed til after 12, i ended up being bang on for my hours at work which was great, being supervisor has a lot of new shit to it, the pay raise is nice but it should be a bigger raise for the amount of work required. i went to the school and finished up all my technicals for my assignment due friday

day ten; i finally got to hang out with my friend iain who i havent seen in almost two months so it was great! since i hadnt smoked weed all weekend my plan was to smoke copious amounts, which i successfully did haha five nice size bongs bowls to myself. i ended up having four smokes just because of the walking there and back. i also got to see bradley and tyler who i havent seen in a long time too. it was nice to really enjoy  my high and just chill

day eleven; me and my friend went to the mall to find things for our “tight and bright” or “rave” party that were having at my house on saturday which shall be interesting, she found stuff but unfortunately i found nothing (n) i’ll have to do some closet searching although all i pretty much wear is dresses or grunge clothes. me and my roommates got so baked it was ridiculous, dubstep is amazing when youre high.

day twelve; well since today is day twelve its not too hard to remember, i havent been up for long but the plan for today is to go to the gym with my friend which will be good and then i guess come back maybe clean up my room a bit and do some homework

again i am late posting but i’ve been so busy! it was a good night at work i got an extra half hour because i stayed for closing and i’m officially going to be supervising next weekend. i didn’t smoke, drink, or get high so i would consider it a very successful day and i feel great! i have no desire to smoke which was the main thing of this whole project

So i broke down. Long day at work I was tired pissed that I couldnt be enjoying the weekend and had a cigarette. But I feel as though one smoke in 3 days is doing really good compared to smoking pretty much a pack a day this summer. I’ve decided in college living in a house full of guys its unrealistic to not party or doing anything to chill out. I’m going to keep with my soberity and not drink because i realized that really its alcohol that made me feel like shit. so i’m not going to drink for 60 days and possibly longer. i enjoy getting stoned, i really do and i dont think theres anything wrong with it, as long as i’m not munching out hard and controlling myself. I think everything about this challenge to change myself is about control. yes i enjoy getting stoned but i cant do it all the time but i think if i’m just doing it once and awhile and i feel good about it theres nothing wrong with it. i still think going 60 days without a drop of alcohol for a college student is going to be hard but i think i can do it. i still really want to quit smoking and i’m slowing going to, but i am going to have those days when i’m just in a really shitty mood and i want to have one. i think we all need our stress relieving and since i’ve become in such a routine of smoking its going to take a bit before i find a new stress reliever and theres nothing wrong with that. quiting cold turkey just isnt realistic but i am really going to work at it.

and yes i realize this is technically day four but i had people over last night and still wanted to have a post for day three, and i will post again tonight

Today was an all around good day and especially being a friday this sound be a time when i most want to go out and party. I went back to work today after being off for 4 weeks for the holidays, and it killed my feet but I’m glad to be back. I got to work with one of my best friends and my boss gave us cute travel mugs and cards for christmas along with the fact that I got all my vacation pay!

I feel as though making this good decision in my life is just making everything better, I cant wait to complete the next 58 days!